You are leaving something behind

Yesterday the senior class at Union College went through something that I never went through. Graduating and leaving Lincoln for good. The day I graduated from Union I knew I was going to do anything I could to get a job here. I had been dating Natalie for two months but I knew that I wanted to continue to date her. Long distance wasn't going to happen for me so I decided that if I had to pump somebody's gas that I would live in Lincoln Nebraska. Since then I have never moved away. You can say that I have lived in Lincoln longer then I have lived anywhere else. It's weird to think about it that way because I almost still consider Kansas City my home. But thinking of leaving this place would really break my heart. In that sense I feel bad for the senior's that have loved it here for four years.

There is something wrong with me.  I like feeling sad.  My favorite movies are depressing movies.  My favorite music is the kind that makes me feel emotionally about something.  I like it because it means that I really care about something.  I like to care about things.  That's how I live my life.  I buy in.  It ends up making me sad when things have to end.  If you haven't noticed from this blog I have bought in to Union College and the students here.  Most people like to separate their work from their lives.  I try to do that but when I think about it Union College is a huge part of my life.  Maybe more then most people's job.  I live at the only house on campus.  I walk to work.  I have students at my house all the time.  Natalie cooks for them.  After we got robbed Natalie and I were worried that a student might have been behind it.  If that would have been true it would have hurt me more then anything.  We both decided that we didn't want to stop having students over because we felt like that was something we could use to help Union students feel at home.  The students through out the years have been some of my best and closest friends.  When they leave I get sad.  I'm sad now.  That just means I am going to miss them.  I am proud of all of the students that graduated yesterday. I am happy for them and I am sad for me. I can't wait to see what God has in store for them.