Hey! Only the first paragraph is about Lebron. The rest is about me....wait...read it anyway.

This is not a sports blog but as everybody knows I am a sports fan.  Tonight like many people across the country I watched Lebron make his decision on where he was going to play ball next year.
 When he came out in front of the cameras he looked very uncomfortable.  When his decision finally came out he made millions of people happy and even more people sad.  When I was listening to his comments something he said made me think.  He was commenting on his thought process while going through this huge decision when he said "I just wanted to soak it in and make sure that I was making the right decision for no one else but myself".  The first time I heard him say that it made perfect sense to me.  Lebron is worried for nobody but himself.  He made the decison that was the best for Lebron James according to Lebron James.  He is chasing what most people call the American dream.  I can't be mad at that.

 I don't really like Lebron James but I don't really have a problem with him picking the team he thought was the best for him.  That being said I don't think that I could really live my life that way.  There is so much pressure to make the right decision.  I don't think I personally could do that.  When I was at the General Conference last week I thought a lot about where my life is heading.  People come up to me all the time and ask me how long I am going to work at Union.  They ask me if I am ever going to get a job teaching since that is what I got my degree in.  They ask me how long I plan to be a recruiter.  To be honest I don't know the answer to any of those questions.  It's hard to know the answers to those type of questions.  What I have been telling people is that Union wants me to work here this year so that is what I am going to do.  I don't have a big master plan for where my life is going.  I don't have a final destination where I want to live.  My parents both grew up in Southern California and their life journey has taken them to both coasts and now the middle.  What would have happened if they would have decided that they were going to live in Southern California for the rest of their lives?

For the longest time I didn't have a plan because I just didn't want to make one.  Now I don't have a plan because I realize that things often don't go as we plan them.  My plan is to let God show me his plan.  In some things I like to have control.  But I don't think I want to have control of my life. Let's say I was in complete control of my life and I knew exactly what my dream job was and where I was going to live and raise children.  I could possibly get away with that.  Perhaps I could even have a mildly successful life.  What the world calls success anyway.  But I"m afriad if I did that then I wouldn't be taking advantage of all of the blesssings that God has in store for me.  These blessings might not come in the form of money.  But I know that they would enrich my life and make me a blessing to my family and others.  I might be trading those blessings for a life that revolved around selfishness.

Whenever I think of me not working at Union College I get really sad.  It is so much a part of my life that I can't imagine working somewhere else or believing in something as much as I believe in Union.  Thinking of saying goodbye to the students, faculty and staff would be one of the hardest things to do.  But if one day God asks me to move on I will trust him.  I think what I am suggesting is that we live our lives according to what God wants for us and not what we think is the best for us.  Because what if we are wrong?  Most likely we are.  God is not.  Trust in the Lord with all of your heart lean not on your own understanding.  In all of your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.